WOW! Fall is here! It has been a whole spring and summer since I looked at my blog!

I am so excited about this change of season as I always am with the season changes. But today I am also excited about the change in my attitude.

It's been a good year for me to do some introspection. I have learned a great deal about me; who I am and why, and who I am becoming.

Those seem like silly things to spend time contemplating and worrying about, but as many of you know, time takes it's toll on any co-dependent behaviors we have acquired and hung onto during the course of our lives.

I have heard the word, co-dependency, for many years, but until this year, I really had no idea that my life had taken the shape it had because of my co-dependent behaviors. And as hard as it is to admit, I fell for every one of the false ideas of my un-healthy beliefs.

I have come up with my own definition of co-dependency, born because I didn't feel that the definitions I came across were quite complete.

“A co-dependent person is one who has lived in a close relationship with a person with a compulsive disorder or addiction, and has adapted to that painful and debilitating experience in an un-healthy way.” KLMC June 2009

I started gathering co-dependent behaviors at a very young age. Heaped upon those unhealthy thought processes were the same negative life experiences that everyone gets to experience. (This is not to say that any specific person was at fault, only that I responded to negative experiences in unhealthy ways.) What I realize now is that, heaping negative life experiences on a person who already has unhealthy thought processess, is akin to trying to swim upstream in a mudslide. It is impossible to move, and even if you could get out, you would be covered with mud!

So, I have spent the year scrapping off the 'mud'.

Now it is time to re-kindle and light the fire under the spirit that is uniquely me, the one that Heavenly Father and His son Jesus Christ know from our pre-mortal life; the spirit that is really me, without the sham and confusion that so often besets us in this mortal journey. I am excited about the possibilities and the adventure.

And so, as we enter into this change of seasons my thoughts for each of you are, that you will be able to look inside and find the real you, the you that walked in paths of light and truth before you entered this earthly life. In so doing may we all be able to dedicate our lives to living in that same light and truth and understanding, of who we really are, and our Great Potential as spirit children of our Heavenly Father.





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